welcome who ever is reading this.. My uhm.. page doesn't have anything interesting in it. so bare with it.. this is my uhh.. online journal which is open to the public.
If you want me add you to my links. tell me so. blal.. so there. ^_^ nothing much to say.. so yeah..
Sang Tuesday, May 30, 2006 -- 09:30 p.m.
oh the joy.
I've turned 18 last February 12, 2006. ^_- it's suppose to be good, but i don't think it is. blal. Sorry for not updating, I will be changing my current layout with something really.. bitter-ish
Anyway, I've been practicing and i still can't get it. I need someone to teach me. blal talaga. ~_~
Retreat went well, didn't get enough sleep though, twas too much for me plus. my roommates were freakin' noisy, but oh well. that's that. I should be happy but instead, it's like nothing's changing, I'm getting worse, aren't i? it hurts and i should cry. But nothing comes out. another blal oh, I want my hair cut!
shut up and stop being bitter. >;o
Sang Saturday, March 4, 2006 -- 08:26 p.m.
Happy New Year Everyone!! =)
Sang Saturday, December 31, 2005 -- 07:37 p.m.
la la la.. :)
My Christmas wasn't that bad. My cousin (Jigo) and i bonded.. mwehehe.. asa loob talaga ang kulo! XDD
so.. how was your holiday? :D i hope it turned out okay.. :D
MERRY CHRISTMAS! XD
Sang Sunday, December 25, 2005 -- 05:38 p.m.
I know that alot of people are probably mad at me and at the same time napplastikan sa akin. Yeah, and sometimes you just wish someone would just punch me in the eye. Well, someone did already, today, at our house. I got punched in the same eye twice, I couldn't fight back. Why?--She's a pregnant woman! yeah.. ada punched me. it hurts so badly and i'm not sure, wala na man daw pasa.. it's just swollen.
...I can't take it anymore, she's always shouting at me. Telling me that i'm useless and i should just die. I try not to get affected but.. you know--it crawls inside of you and it makes you think---am i really useless?
God.. that punch was something. I realized something, what i felt, what i'm feeling and what i don't want to feel anymore. I should stop being so friendly around people who don't even like me. Pagtapos na tapos na. I should stop it.. mas lalo na kay Ron. I mean, think about it. Nagsasayang ako ng oras. Ayaw nung tao eh. Pero, salamat din kasi kahit papaano, he's still nice person, he's a good friend.
Maybe that's why, walang nagtatagal na kaibigan sa akin. Cause i try too much. It's hard to accept, pero, oo totoo..
my eye is swollen. And maybe it would be nice if someone would punch me again. It hurts, pero yun yung totoo
Sang Thursday, December 22, 2005 -- 12:25 p.m.
Happy holidays. =)
A friend from the north sent me a picture of himself.. here it is! =)
Used CorelDraw 10 for teh Penguin, Adobe Photoshop (editing teh penguin) and ImageReady (for teh simple gif movement.)
I need a new hobby.. T_T
Sang Sunday, December 11, 2005 -- 04:52 p.m.
anyway, everything went.. ah okay.. but we encountered alot of problem.
First, medyo mainit ang ulo ko sa drummer and rhythm. the reasons, i'll just keep to my self. But i do have a point for not liking them. promise.
anyway.. click the title of this entry, it'll direct you to my photobucket account, all the pictures taken from that event are posted there.
Special thanks to...:Noelle (for taking photos), Ate Riz (For letting us borrow her digital cam), Ron (we borrowed his guitar efx), Noicacided (for the all the help you guys gave us, astig kayo) and to those who came. salamat ng marami sa suporta!
I'm tired.. think I'm gonna hit the sack.
Sang Friday, December 9, 2005 -- 06:51 p.m.
There's an upcoming Battle of the Bands at Concordia College entitled "Youth_Play4Him" and a "friend" entered me and my friends in the said "competition". It would mean a lot if you'd come and watch.
This is my (actually OUR) first time to enter such a competition (plus i have a small role! yey! I play bass) I'm really anxious, nervous, a lil bit excited and very MUCH scared since as i said before, this IS my VERY first time to participate an event like this.
Where: Concordia College School Campus
When: December 6, 2005 (Tuesday) time: 4:30pm
Fee: P150.00 (entrance)
I really hope you guys can come and watch us. Plus, there's another band from St. Paul Makati who'll perform as well.. ^_^ (they are WAY better)
I can't figure out Sonicflood's "Carried Away" ..wala lang, may hula na ako, but I can't figure out the rest. =_='
Sang Wednesday, November 30, 2005 -- 10:50 p.m.
i hate buses, the people, the "pests", the people and THE DRIVER. ^_^ ahaha.. reason? i'll keep it to myself.
wow, alot of people went to kAME ULIT! 'twas fun even though we were uber late. Akala nga namin, we won't see Dojibiron perform. Anyway, it was really fun, though i didn't get to meet Ismael (sorry po talaga!!! T_T) but i think i saw him, but I'm not sure if it was really him or not.. *sigh*
Nyaa! i missed Mimie, her gelpren Galo and Gab soo much! same goes to Dojibiron (Vince, Ricki, Deo, Mimie, Derrick and Ron), NEOtaku (Glen, Naqs, Kaz, Kaloy, Epex) and Porngeny (Hazel, Rhea, Terry, Bryan and their drummer*forgot his name*).
back to doing thy laundry. dum dee dum dee dum.
Sang Tuesday, November 8, 2005 -- 04:44 p.m.
To whom it may concern..
hey.. I'm not sure if YOU read this.. but.. i sure hope you DO
IF you're a 4th year student of St. Paul Makati.
Read on.. I'm not limiting this to anyone.. READ
if you want. :) matamaan kung sino matamaan
since i don't know who the "sender" is.. I just
want things to be clear.
As much as you want me to get mad, I can't help
but laugh at what you posted. GRABEH. if you want
to backstab me. BE MY GUEST. though i didn't like
you including some of my FRIENDS (namely Christina
If "you" REALLY were my "Friends" and if you
really are that SMART, you wouldn't waste your
precious time writing a "sweet" story about me.
Ang sweet NINYO/MO naman! nagsayang ka/kayo ng
oras and nagpagod ka pa / pa kayo at nakagawa kayo
ng liham para sa akin.
POINTS I WANT TO CLARIFY:
- hindi po ako sikat. =)
- Do I need to tell you where I'm going?
- Teka,, ang tanong.. "Kilala nyo ba ako!?"
- I'm a hypocrite!? walang katuturan
pinagsasasabi!? LOOK WHO'S TALKING!?
- I'm happy... stop ruining my last Year in Highschool
hhmmm... if you got the attention you want
CONGRATULATIONS.. you got MY attention. hurray for
PS.. salamat sa mga nagsabi sa akin about "Gez Huz
Bak"'s message--"I know it's not his/her fault."
he/she's just doing his/her job. ^_^
Sang Wednesday, November 23, 2005 -- 07:48 p.m.
penguins.. la la la.. they're gay!
anyway, I'm having so much fun using 'Adobe ImageReady 7.0'. First, I made a penguin using Corel Draw 10 then I animated it a little, but I'm not done with it yet.. I'm still having so much f~uu~nn!
I'm in a good mood, I'm not sure why. Don't want to ruin my night anyways.
...great, my mood just changed! =( I hate this.. mood swings (after effect of the "cycle") nya! this is stupid. I'll just go back in making my penguin. ho hum.. >:P
Sang Tuesday, November 22, 2005 -- 09:39 p.m.
uuhhm.. attempting suicide is a serious crime, and you'd be labeled as a depress, cynical, pessimitic, problematic, etc kind of person... well in some ways i do have those attitudes towards certain events. I like ranting about stupid things that occur in my life and I love how I can write down things i never thought i could tell that certain person (nya!). BUT I'm not thinking of committing suicide (well not again..) --technically, i never did. :P
out of boredom.. i made this.
I'm actually trying out something that to some other people.. it's like suicide (NO, i am NOT doing anything illegal okay!?). Oh, but I'm having fun trying it out eventhough it's so hard and i can't understand some of it.. it's pretty awesome, what i'm feeling i mean.. i'm happy but at the same time sad and uuhh.. kinda weirded out. first, i never expected to understand ANY of it since i never knew i could do it. (well,, a little) buttom line.. I'm happy but something's still missing.
Suicide is a sweet sensation. but in the end.. Hell will welcome you. :)
life is too complex and confusing for me to understand. ...Chocolate anyone?
Sang Thursday, November 3, 2005 -- 03:52 a.m.
It's getting worse and i don't like it one bit. It feels like, thousands of butterflies fluttering inside my stomach. I can't take it anymore. please help me. *sob* I feel so stupid, pathetic and at the same time hopeless, whatever i do, whatever i feel. It doesn't matter, does it? anyway.. why would it?! it's not that important, is it?
Eyeshield 21 is Yey. I'm beginning to understand American Football. (well not really, though I'm still confuse with the rules and how they play it ...it's brutal but it clearly states "sportsmanship") I like how the series started, it has its occasional cliches but hey, I'm not complaining! ^_^ it's nice and i like Hiruma-san, *raises both hainds up in the air and yells* "YA-HA!" >3. yey yey yey yey!
Noelle and I are planning to go to that "Hataw! Hanep! Hero" convention tomorrow since we didn't go today because of some "unfortunate" reasons. yey! I'm bored. I want to go somewhere really far, maybe Hawaii? or where ever.. as if i have any moolah to spend for it. =_=; why doesn't money grow on trees? *sigh*. oh well.. I'm going, I'm starting to feel sleepy. zzZZZzzZZzzz... -_-;
Sang Saturday, November 12, 2005 -- 11:10 p.m.
Yeys! Noelle is home!
I finished teh CLE project and finished the
report I'm suppose to do. I stink at summaries. honest! I'm going back to school tomorrow, I feel so lazy, I feel so lazy. darn. I feel like a big pile of gloop. I wish "something" nice would happen tomorrow. *sigh* oh well..
All i want to do right now is listen, learn and smile. :P finished the whole "thingy"; twas kinda hard but it was nice and really "corny"
I admit, ang corny/super weird and pa-tweetums yung song.. :) but I'm just starting.. :)
Sang Wednesday, November 9, 2005 -- 06:40 p.m.
butterflies + 3rd Stage
This day's been kinda... boring.. =_=*poof!*
Gab taught me how to play poker last night. (nag-overnight siya sa house) House is kinda boring when you don't have anything to do. *sigh* oh well.. I went to their house yesterday to give em' episodes 1-2 of Gokusen live action. Kaya ayun, I invited her over, so yeah..
Me, Gab, Kuya Erl and Kuya John John played poker, I kept loosing and after a few more unlucky rounds, I won! YEY! ehehehe..
Bon was here! ^_^ yey! haven't seen her in a long time.. and i missed her! yey! Erl and John John dropped by earlier today (and yes, we played cards) and now.. Ate Louanne is Beside me, using teh other computer. :) YEY!
Finished watching Initial D 3rd stage plus Battle Stage; but i can't open the Extra Stage, something must be wrong. I still like Nissan Sileighty driven by Sato Mako but I'm starting to like Kyouko Iwase (Initial D 4th Stage) although, i'm not familiar with car racing and such. I'm amazed by how they animated the race scenes.. ehehe..
I don't get you, one minute we're talking and then the next you know.. it changes. haay.. anlabo. AYOS! -_-;
I'm starving, maybe this is the main reason why i feel like there are dozens of butterflies flying inside my stomach.. dang. =_= oh well.. can't do anything about it. MUST.WORK!
Sang Friday, November 4, 2005 -- 08:40 p.m.
Hersheys Milk Chocolate Bar™ is HAPPINESS but.. since i do not have the money to buy such happy drug (yes, it makes me giddy and all happy, got problems with that? =_=;) I'll settle for Goldilock's Special Polvoron™ but one thing i hate bout this Polvoron, it dries my throat and it's itchy.. weird ne?
I miss SerpentSkirt and Noicacided; I mean.. I miss practicing with them. Mas lalo na SerpentSkirt I miss the tugtugan session we do everytime there's an event or something. haaay.. And I miss holding a bass guitar, Yamaha BB-415 Model.. I swear, if someone bought it and gave it to me for free, I'll worship that person like a GOD! XDD ahaha..
I don't think he read nor looked at the message i sent him last night in his ym. ewan.. I'm hopeless and alot of people know that. but i don't want to quit.. i don't want to give up. I am THAT pathetic. I know.
Sang Monday, October 31, 2005 -- 04:01 p.m.
rain rain. =)
right now.. I'm eating a bar of Hersheys Milk Chocolate.
Right now.. Arnold Arre's The Mythology Class looks interesting and I think the story is nice, should i buy em'? hhmm.. i wonder~~
I love you. <3 Hersheys bar.. XD you bring me happiness. XD
not much to say.
Updated my livejournal. Click here. There are pictures and stuff..
Sang Sunday, October 30, 2005 -- 07:40 p.m.
haai.. this week has been so stressful. I had to finish all of em' requirements for some subjects and I had to pass projects and type things and print some and blah blah blah, I think you know the drill.. :)
I still need to go to the mall to buy a.. uhh.. sticker for a "
friend"... =.=; and what am i doing here? well.. I'm too lazy to pick my heavy self up and walk. danget. I'm tired. XP
anyway, I was thinking... maybe i could buy that bass guitar i saw at Yupangco Bldg, it's a 5 string bass Yamaha, it's Maroon and the model is BB - 415 yesterday.. >;) but.. it costs around 30,000Php T_T wala pang amplifier.. haaay But.. i'm not good at picking up things. ^^; oh well..
Sang Wednesday, October 26, 2005 -- 04:27 p.m.
Head over Feet
You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was
You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
-A portion of "Head Over Feet" By Alanis Morisette [album: Jagged Little Pill]
I just want a certain person to see and understand these lines. IF ever he's reading and looking at this site that is.. oh well.. doesn't matter.
Sang Monday, October 24, 2005 -- 09:59 p.m.
currently feeling: SLEEPY~~..
cravings: bed and pillows and sleep
listening to: "Beauty and Madness" by Fra Lippo Lippi
this is what i feel right now.
okay.. so right now I'm typing the project proposal me and my groupmates did a few weeks back. I'm sleepy but I'm here at the shop working and typing. I want to slowly kill myself.
...maybe i should get my vices back.. >X3 ..naah, i don't think so..
I'm tired, but I'm waiting for them to come back. Inaantok na ko and I'm about to give up.. ahaha, but i won't give up, it's because of this thing; this is the reason why I'm tired. hahaaha! It's kinda fun in a way.
oh well. "I'm hating myself all over again" --- I really don't want to, it seems like it finds a way and crawls inside me slowly until I can't take it anymore and then... i start to cry, once more. it sucks. =_=;
Sang Monday, October 24, 2005 -- 07:36 p.m.
tomorrow's the last day of our exams. Thank God! (there's AP, Calcu, Fil) ^_^ now i can relax, kahit na we don't have sembreak (di daw uso sa st. paul un) i can still say that wala na kong iisipin!! mwa ha ha ha ha! :)
Was just thinking of editing this layout again but I'm still brainstorming 'bout what I should put here. NYAHH~!!
Everything's fine i hope..---on second thought.. I'm getting irritated. =_=; I'm having alot of trouble printing my project, denget! border won't show up properly and it seems like I'm loading the wrong size of paper.
Can't wait for HS intrams at st. paul qc.. mwehehehe.. ayus. I get to see my anaks and my friends! ahahaha!! anything i can do? I'm not sure, sumasakit likod ko.
I'm asking alot of people for help, I need to buy it. Honest I need money badly if i want to give *boom* the christmas gift.! :) I'm hoping too much (and i aiming too high, crap) and uhm.. it's a nice way of saying "I'm here."--or whatever the heck *boom* thinks.
currently craving for:Puto Seko and chocolate!
Sang Tuesday, October 18, 2005 -- 06:11 p.m.
Everything's fine.. We finished practicing Akap earlier today but we started cleaning Zombie and Bizarre Love Triangle
I want to watch Corpse Bride tomorrow. as in.. sobra and next week is our 2nd Periodical Exams it sucks.. really... it does. =(
I thought you meant it.
I can't remember things right now.. *sigh* oh well.. =(
I'm tired.. :(
Sang Tuesday, October 4, 2005 -- 08:38 p.m.
so tired... so very tired... =_=; poofed to the max.all this time I thought what i was doing was right, turns out-- it wasn't. "Reality" kicked me in the rear last night, so as we (me&noelle) went home, I started talking about weird things. Couldn't quite understand what i was saying--prolly because bangag ako last night. Galing fieldtrip tapos uwi sa bahay then went to Freedom bar sa may Anonas Complex to attend Ongaku Session.
Speaking of last night... Went to Ongaku Session with Noelle last night. We had a blast kahit na we didn't stay till the whole thing ended, Masaya and I had the chance to talk and catch up with some of my friends.. mwe he he he! I missed them.
Sang Sunday, October 2, 2005 -- 11:48 a.m.
moi fingers aren't that long ..so i can't reach the other note on another fret! ..tama ba pagkasabi ko? stoopid fingers! ..we started practicing "Zombie" by The Cranberries and uuhh, teh usual line up. (WonderBoy, Akap and Bizarre Love Triangle), guitar is soo heavy and i can't feel 5 of my fingers
twas fun! I escaped the boredom-ness and uuhh, the incident that happened at our house earlier, today!
yey, no more
crying! Music is the one thing that takes boredom and sadness away from my system, which is good considering what I'm feeling on recent events that has been happening to me. leche talaga mga plastik, sana mabasa nyo to, kung natatamaan ka, GOOD FOR YOU! kung hindi, kung pwede lang, panipisin mo mukha mo PLEASE LANG! I can't believe it..
I have this feeling that I'm forgetting something, but i can't put my finger on it. -_-;
Sang Saturday, September 24, 2005 -- 09:22 p.m.